Oh my my first drum

For my Birthday, (July 7) my Mother and Godfather/stepfather gifted me a gift far more than an object.

My first Drum.

I am just taken. I've never had a drum of my own, nor taken classes. In fact I never felt worthy of a drum because I fear the cultural appropriation it implies and I think there is an initiation process that earns one a drum; a sort of rite of passage.... or something I can't put my finger on.

But this drum sings right to my soul ..... the resonance of it's sound vibrates quite literally, right through my skin and blood, into the very marrow of my bones.

I never in a million years expected to be gifted with my own drum. What does this mean? Am I worthy? Can I use this to it's best power? How? What is the drums name? Her medicine? Her gift?

Is it a milestone that I don't see? I'm always changing .... everything either feels like a milestone or a great painful waiting. What shall I learn? What new song will she teach me?

I'm listening, for sure.